Dating your Girl

It’s almost a year since the first time I met him. It was last year in the month of July. He was actually my former classmate when I was in primary. He still look the same, he still has a mysterious smile that I like so much, only thing is, he’s now wearing a glasses, which is make his smile more mysterious. It was a quick meeting, together with other friends. It was more like a reunion actually. Afterwards, it continued to another meeting, and it still didn’t make a spark in my heart.

I was not available on that time. I was single, but not available. Which mean, I had a watcher around me, and that would be my boyfriend (now is my ex). Then several months after the quick meeting with the guy with the mysterious smile, I broke up with my boyfriend for some reason, and I become available again.

I decided to approach this guy, my former classmate, two months after the break up. It was my very first time to approach a guy. I’m trying not to get very aggressive that probably will make him feel annoyed, and I’m also trying not to be so passive. It was quite difficult tough. Considering that he was a coldhearted guy and he had been alone with no girlfriend for more than two years. He drowns himself deeply into his work. So… it takes a lot of effort for me to melt his heart down.

It keeps going up and down, the courage to approach him. I’m scared that he will finally found out that I was approaching him. I’m scared that he would freak out and run away. But something come up in my mind, it convinced me that he would gave me the same feeling in return. So I just continued to approach him for about two more months until I decided to make confession toward him. I really feel that I need to stop approaching him that time. So I encouraged myself by sending him a message, saying that I was approaching him, and I feel tired because I didn’t take any feedback from him. It hurts my feeling to send him that kind of message. And I know it takes time to forget about him. But I need to do that, because I don’t think I had enough patience to approach him anymore.

Not in a very long time, he replied my message. He apologize that he might hurt my feeling, he said that he is not as a good person as I think he is. And he was hoping that we could be a good friend (which is sounds very cliché). At first, I really want to get rid of him from my life and from my mind. But…, I didn’t think that is a good decision to make, and that was definitely not an adult’s decision. So… our relationship after the confession is really flat. I did, trying to make a distance between us, because I don’t want to get more attached to him. It was a relationship that runs with sending texts and emails, and had a few meetings. But I did too, still hoping for the ‘same feeling in return’. J

Three months later…

(This was the best part), this is the time when he ask me for another kind of relationship for both of us. And I’m really excited (till I can’t help myself to cover my ears when he said that, childish I know). We didn’t say that we are now boyfriend and girlfriend, we didn’t say that we can meet each other every single day or we are going to be together forever. But we did have a serious relationship, adult kind of relationship. J

And now here we are…, having our adult relationship, hoping it will last. At least I’m trying my best to make it last. And believe me, if you ask me, ‘How many times do you meet him since you had your relationship?’, my answer will be, ’once in a blue moon’. Weird huh??!! J

Now I believe, whenever I want to have something, with a little bit of patience, little bit of hope, and a regular prayer, it will give me a best result. So girls…, keep your patience and passion up!!